Thinking, Realizing, Forgetting, and Remebering.

If I think about it, really think about it, I realize that I barely know you. Which is okay, because it makes sense-we didn't know each other for very long-but it's also not okay because I wish I did know you better. We spent some time together, not really by choice, but still some time together. And our parting was bitter sweet, for me at least. And now a month after I let myself forget, I find that I miss you even if I didn't really know you. And I regret not letting myself get to know you better because I don't see our paths colliding any time soon.

I want you, I want you so badd, it's driving me madd.

Sometimes I think about you when you're not around. More then I should.
Sometimes I forget who you are.
Sometimes when I am with you I never want to leave your side.
Sometimes when I am with you I feel nothing.

Sometimes I want you to talk to me.
But sometimes I wish you would leave.
Sometimes I want nothing but your eyes looking into mine,
Yet sometimes I can't wait for you to look away. So I can breathe, a little.

The Never Ending Parenthesis

I hate you Leona. End your effing parenthesis-now.

(NOW!)*

Small Blessings :)

Just found an entire, freshly baked brownie on my stove top. Yumm.

Not sure who's it is though, maybe I shouldn't have any...nahh... ;)

Fishy, fish, fish.

Hey, did anyone notice my fish? :)

I love them.

Blog worthy.

I saw the movie "Julie & Julia" the other night. It was tres fab. But it got me thinking because Julie made a blog about her year-long-cooking-goal-thingy and I thought "wow, my blog is incredibly lame."

I need a goal, something to work up to. Because I feel a bit like time is flying past me and I am wasting it. But what? Sigh.

If I had a baby...

Not that I would, because I'm much too young, but just if...

I would want it to be a boy, named:

Jacob Matthew.

Then I would want a girl, named:

Avalon Elizabeth Josephine.

And last, but not least I would want another boy, named:

Leom Oliver.

I'm not sure why, probably all the babysitting that I have been doing, but I have been thinking about children a lot. Everytime I see little kid or baby stuff (especially clothes) in stores I have crazy urges to buy them and give them too all the little kids that I know. It was funny because I told my dad the names that I had picked out this morning and he said,''Shouldn't you think about getting a mate before you think about kids?'' Oh sigh, father. I mean really, who needs men when you can have little children to care for? ;P