You make me so Mad

The worst kind of mad
The suffocating mad
Mad that you can't do anything with
To yell or to cry?
To break something maybe?

This mad, won't be expressed
This mad, just swells inside
Pushing at the edges
So that it makes you twitch
Tears well but never fall
Words form but go no where
Arms swing but never hit

You make me so mad.
You suffocate me
You attack my character
and call me a fool for thinking so
It's always my fault
You can do no wrong

No I will not carve pumpkins with you
No it was not selfish of me to put off my homework
No I don't tell you, and you want to know why?
BECAUSE the last time, I didn't stop hearing about it for
m o n t h s.

And I will lie if I have to
I will tell you I'm done
I will tell you I have no homework
and guess what?
I will finnish it anyways.
I don't want to fail.
I'm not stupid.

How dare I push you over the edge eh?!
How dare you try to push me around.
Fuck off.
I can hear you bitching to your precious girlfriend
who you hold in a golden light of parenting
I will never parent like her
I will never parent like you
I am not you
I will not make your mistakes
I am me
I will make my own mistakes
And I will live with them
If you're going to set me free,
You have to let me go.

Clue in.
I will do want I want
When I want.
Not because I am selfish.
Because I am a person
and I deserve to

I am not selfish.
I am no more selfish then you.
And it was you, yourself who said
"we're all a little selfish, we have to be"
because otherwise, we can't take care of ourselves?
Right?
Well you're doing a shit job
Practice what you fucking preach.