I should of known better then to give you my only heart

Yesterday I was feeling insecure about us. I didn't know how you felt but I thought that I was the one bringing all the tension into the relationship. I assumed that I was creating this feeling, because I was insecure.

Today you told me you didn't know how you felt about me. It all became so clear. Why I let myself believe, over and over again, that I am seeing things wrong or imagining your actions I don't know.

Yesterday you wanted to fix everything but you couldn't.

Today I figured out what was wrong inside. Today I fixed everything...except you. I let myself think that I was the problem and that you would be fine and waiting for me when I realized what was wrong. Today you proved me wrong.

Yesterday I was falling in love with you and hoping that you were falling in love with me too. Yesterday  I was scared.

Today I am confused and hurt. My heart is breaking and I am regretting letting myself love you.

I want you to talk to me. I told you that and you said nothing. I am surprised at my reaction to your confusion. You are just a boy who needs time to think. I guess I didn't know how much I loved you until you threatened to leave. I'm reading too much into this. All you asked for was some time to think. But I don't want to let you think; I want to let you talk. Tell me what's happening so that I can have a fighting chance. I have no idea how you feel about me so I have no idea if there's is somebody on my side in your head. I don't even know if you are texting her right now. Why does she get a representative and I do not. Maybe this has nothing to do with her. If it doesn't then I've done something wrong. What did I do wrong? This is why I want to talk to you. How long are you going to make me wait? Are you pretending I do not exist? Are you thinking about me at all? Cause I am certainly thinking about you. If I'd only had an hour with you...

Can I possibly be mad at you when you finally do talk to me if you make me wait? Are we even together right now? Last night I dreamt of another boy he was very nice. I kept thinking of you but I was so mad at you for hurting me. Which is unfair. All you did was ask for space...but maybe you didn't realize how quickly I trust and how quickly I get hurt. I also dreamt that you did text me back. Then I woke up. You hadn't.